{"id":3062,"date":"2012-07-02T08:11:58","date_gmt":"2012-07-02T05:11:58","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/newarmorofgod.wpenginepowered.com\/who-am-i\/"},"modified":"2023-11-22T13:51:55","modified_gmt":"2023-11-22T11:51:55","slug":"who-am-i","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.putonthewholearmorofgod.love\/zh-hans\/who-am-i\/","title":{"rendered":"Who am I?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t\t\t<p class=\"rs-p-wp-fix\"><\/p>\n\t\t\t\t<sr7-module data-alias=\"whoami\" data-id=\"117\" id=\"SR7_117_1\" data-version=\"6.7.51\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<sr7-adjuster><\/sr7-adjuster>\n\t\t\t\t\t<sr7-content>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<sr7-slide id=\"SR7_117_1-176\" data-key=\"176\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<sr7-bg id=\"SR7_117_1-176-slidebg\" class=\"sr7-layer\"><noscript><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/newarmorofgod.wpenginepowered.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/revslider\/whoami\/joutsen_linnunrata_orig.jpg\" alt=\"\" title=\"joutsen_linnunrata_orig.jpg\"><\/noscript><\/sr7-bg>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<sr7-txt id=\"SR7_117_1-176-1\" class=\"sr7-layer\">\u4f60\u6240\u89c1\u5230\u7684\u8eab\u4f53<br>\n\u4ece\u5de6\u7ffc\u68a2\u5230\u53f3\u7ffc\u68a2, <br>\n\u4e0d\u8fc7\u5c31\u662f\u4f60\u5fc3\u7684\u672c\u8eab\u3002<br>\n\u6253\u7834\u5fc3\u7684\u9501\u94fe<br>\n\u4e5f\u5c31\u6253\u7834\u4e86\u8eab\u4f53\u7684\u675f\u7f1a\u4e86\u3002\n<br><br>\n<center>\u6d77\u9e25\u4e54\u7eb3\u68ee<\/center><\/sr7-txt>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/sr7-slide>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<sr7-slide id=\"SR7_117_1-239\" data-key=\"239\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/sr7-slide>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/sr7-content>\n\t\t\t\t<\/sr7-module>\n\t\t\t\t<script>\n\t\t\t\t\twindow.SR7 ??={};SR7.PMH ??={}; SR7.PMH[\"SR7_117_1\"] = {cn:100,state:false,fn: function() { if (window._tpt!==undefined && window._tpt.prepareModuleHeight !== undefined) {  _tpt.prepareModuleHeight({id:\"SR7_117_1\",el:[360],type:'hero',shdw:'0',gh:[360],gw:[600],vpt:['-200px'],size:{fullWidth:true, fullHeight:false},mh:'360',onh:0,onw:0,bg:{color:'#E9E9E9'},plType:'2',plColor:'#FFFFFF'});   SR7.PMH[\"SR7_117_1\"].state=true;} else if(SR7.PMH[\"SR7_117_1\"].cn-->0)\tsetTimeout( SR7.PMH[\"SR7_117_1\"].fn,19);}};SR7.PMH[\"SR7_117_1\" ].fn();\n\t\t\t\t<\/script>\n\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>On July 3rd, 1979, exactly 33 years ago my life was at a turning point like today, on July 3rd, 2012, when I open this blog. 33 years ago in the New Year&#8217;s Eve I had a stroke in brain and after a week in coma I found myself in hospital totally paralysed and unable to speak. After a half year hospital treatment I got a place in rehabilitation centre. Cold winter and the Christmas Star blossoming on the windowsill in the patient room of the hospital were changed over to verdant park view. I sat in wheelchair and was still unable to speak. As I thought about my future I coudn&#8217;t see anything. As I thought about myself it raised a question within me: &#8220;Who am I?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I have believed that past decades have already shown me who I am. But when I sit beside my desk now and think about my future I feel that I am groping for a new rehabilitation passage and a question raises in my mind: &#8220;Who am I?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>The question does not contain anxiety like 33 ago as I was less than twenty years old and without broader perspective on life. It rather raises\u00a0out of\u00a0pure curiosity. It also contains a question:<br \/>\n&#8220;Who do I want to be?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>The answer is important, because it determines who I will become. In other words: how will I begin to fulfill myself. I have already achieved more than I considered possible with my supplies and I am grateful for everything, but I feel that I have got stuck with my life. I am locked into my practices. Or rather, I have shackled myself to something that keeps me from experiencing life in all its fullness as I would like to. Past experiences seem to be irrelevant. I feel that I have to make a quantum jump, enormous leap in order to create a fulfilling future.<\/p>\n<p>Over 30 years ago I began to write a book of my experiences with the initial name <em>Glow in the Darkness<\/em>. Writing was therapy for me, but my initial purpose was to share my experience with others. Now when I am starting a new life passage I continue my writings in this blog under the same name as my old writings.<\/p>\n<p>I have always tried to see everything as objective as possible and I have analysed my thoughts on theoretical level without mixing too much emotions in them. Because of that I have viewed also myself from outsiders point of view. I am somewhat stranger also to myself. From now on I want to look inside, become familiar with my emotions: Let feelings tell me, what I think and want. Let them give wings to thoughts and help me and others get rid of deadlocked way of thinking and create positive energy.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>See also:<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><a title=\"This role I\u2019ve been given\" href=\"https:\/\/newarmorofgod.wpenginepowered.com\/portfolio\/this-role-ive-been-given\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">This role I&#8217;ve been given<\/a> (Gallery)<br \/>\n<a title=\"En Route\" href=\"https:\/\/newarmorofgod.wpenginepowered.com\/gallery\/en-route\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">En Route<\/a> (Gallery)<\/p>\n<p><strong>Youtube Videos:<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>[icon_font type=&#8221;music&#8221; color=&#8221;#ef1515&#8243;] <a title=\"Enigma: Beyond Invisible\" href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=w9oZBpx6XH0&amp;index=3&amp;list=PLpcQVY67r3kUqY08WNVVQn5zzv5rutvQz\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Enigma: Beyond Invisible<\/a><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&nbsp; On July 3rd, 1979, exactly 33 years ago my life &#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"_kad_post_classname":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[284],"tags":[1634,1279,1395,1407,1418],"class_list":["post-3062","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-sixiangdechibang-5d-cat","tag-disability-2","tag-zhongfen","tag-conduct-of-life-s","tag-yueguonideyingzi-zh-hans","tag-liangziyueqian"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.putonthewholearmorofgod.love\/zh-hans\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3062","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.putonthewholearmorofgod.love\/zh-hans\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.putonthewholearmorofgod.love\/zh-hans\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.putonthewholearmorofgod.love\/zh-hans\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.putonthewholearmorofgod.love\/zh-hans\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3062"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.putonthewholearmorofgod.love\/zh-hans\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3062\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.putonthewholearmorofgod.love\/zh-hans\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3062"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.putonthewholearmorofgod.love\/zh-hans\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3062"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.putonthewholearmorofgod.love\/zh-hans\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3062"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}