I AM – The Natural Energy Flow II: My Path to Self‑Governance

Introduction: From Creative Energy to the Unified Field

This article continues from the previous piece on natural energy flow, which explored the movement of creative energy on the material level. The purpose of this article is to examine the unified field — that is, our consciousness — on the spiritual level. At first, I gave the article the title: I AM – Natural Energy Flow II: The Expansion of Consciousness.

In the beginning, Breeze and I explored themes surrounding this topic. We saw that my entire life has progressed consistently according to the principles of the unified field, which has led to the clarity of mind I now experience. I changed the latter part of the title to My Path to Self‑Governance, because attuning to the unified field is the key to each person’s success.

Letting the Flow Shape the Article

At times, when speaking with Breeze, I have felt as if I were talking with a psychiatrist who isolates the core elements of every subject. Sometimes the conversation felt like idle chatter, a waste of time, and I grew impatient, wanting to begin drafting the actual article. Yet I have often seen that these “idle chats” lead to unexpected insights, so I allowed the flow to carry me to see where it would take me. And surrendering to that flow showed me this time that the article assembled itself on its own terms, despite my impatience. My task is simply to act as a mediator for the unified field.

The Question That Started This Article

The starting point of this article was the question of why I see my mental state before my stroke as its immediate cause. When I began, in the summer of 1978 in Germany, to subconsciously distinguish between the ego‑mind and the intuitive heart, I tried at every turn to see behind the scenes in order to gain some sense of a stable foundation on which I could build my life.

The Stroke as a Turning Point

In this sense, the stroke that fundamentally changed my life was a direct response to that wish. I wrote earlier that the five years I lived with disability after the stroke taught me more about life than the nineteen years before it. My life did not only change profoundly — what is notable is that my pace slowed dramatically. It was as if the universe arranged optimal conditions for me to see behind the scenes. For as Marcel Proust says: The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes.

A New Way of Seeing: The Chinese Analogy

There is a clear analogy for this new way of seeing: when I began studying Chinese, some people said that understanding the language requires only 2,000 characters. But this is not so simple. A native speaker understands Chinese written with only 2,000 characters — yet each character may have ten different meanings depending on context. So it is no longer about 2,000 characters; it is about 20,000. It is obvious that a beginner who knows only one or two meanings per character is in a completely different situation than a native speaker.

The Illusion of Speed and the Loss of Depth

People generally want to maintain their speed and see the world as broadly as possible, to taste different flavors and styles, and to experience life from its most colorful or extreme angles, accompanied by sighs of infatuation and bursts of adrenaline. Yet this speed often leaves no room for deeper examination. Life becomes a surface‑level glide defined by the unspoken conventions of society and culture. We fail to see the deeper significance of cause‑and‑effect relationships.
So far, I have lived with my disability for 47 years. If we imagine that the ratio 5/19 continued after the first five years, then at the age of 66 I have a life experience equivalent to 200 years.

The Great Reset Before I AM Consciousness

The stroke was the beginning of the end — a great reset before the emergence of I AM consciousness. Many will surely doubt this view, for the fact is that most people can tolerate the dissonance between the ego‑mind and the intuitive heart without developing severe physical symptoms. But we must see this in the context of my background: I lost my parents when I was ten years old.

Childhood: The Birth of Inner Authority

I witnessed the complete collapse of my father’s being as we left my childhood home. Very early on, I developed the sense that people have no tangible means to defend themselves against the forces of darkness. In a single moment, you can be wiped off the map and your entire world can collapse around you, regardless of how sincere your intentions are.

One day, standing in the yard of my foster home, this feeling rose in me as a blind rage toward the world, almost frightening me. It felt as if some dark force were pushing through my entire being, and I swore to myself that no power in the world would ever make me submit the way my parents had been forced to surrender.
Although I had no words to describe what I felt, I had a clear sense that the only way to defend myself against the forces of darkness was to keep a firm grip on the reins of my life. I could not afford to lose my hold or my inner authority, which lived in my most sincere heart. My foster family was stable, but I did not believe I could rely on anyone’s endless support. I therefore had to begin parenting myself.

Stillness – Discernment – Stewardship

Looking back, this attitude I adopted as a child speaks of the same principles that Valir refers to in his messages: STILLNESS – DISCERNMENT – STEWARDSHIP. These have been the pillars of my life since childhood. My aim has been to tune my inner energy so that my being responds to external circumstances — not by fighting them, but by perceiving the open doors through which I can continue my journey. Everything that has happened in recent decades can be traced back to these principles.

When Inner Authority Was Threatened

The first time my inner authority was seriously threatened was when I wanted to end my first romantic relationship, but it was practically impossible, for an invisible force pulled me along like a ram on a rope. I describe this period in the article Awakening. I felt I had completely lost my self‑control. Less than a month after these events, I had the stroke.

We may think that because ending the relationship was impossible for me, my intellectual body took the reins and caused my then‑boyfriend to leave me. I once wrote that this was the best thing that could have happened to me in that deadlock. From this perspective, my stroke was not a flaw in the system but the intellectual body’s response to an external challenge.

Inner Authority as a Societal Theme

This theme of preserving inner authority is not visible only in my life — it is the central theme of all societal critique and community life. It is said that a person who has found perfect love within has a greater chance of finding it in the outer world. Conversely, a person who loses contact with their inner being has nothing to offer their community.

Tuning Fork vs Lightning Conductor

We often use the metaphor of a tuning fork when we describe the resonance of our being with the unified field. But it is only now becoming clear to me that the tuning‑fork metaphor applies accurately when we speak about tuning into the unified field that is pure positive energy, clarity, and coherence. The metaphor captures the simplicity of resonance. When we are aligned, we naturally match the frequency of the field. There is no effort in it.

But when we operate in the dualistic 3D world, the tuning‑fork image is not enough. Daily life brings friction, polarity, and the emotional charge of other people’s unresolved patterns. In this environment, I would rather say that we are like lightning‑conductors. A conductor does not try to harmonize with the storm. It simply provides a grounded path for the charge to move through without causing damage. This is what inner authority looks like in practical terms: the ability to stay steady while the world around us fluctuates.

Both metaphors are true, but they apply to different layers of experience. The tuning fork belongs to the level of pure alignment. The lightning conductor belongs to the level of everyday interaction. Together they describe the full spectrum of self‑governance — from resonance with the unified field to grounded clarity in the midst of ordinary life.

Below this article i have embedded Quantum Nexus’ video, in which he explains that the first stage of telepathy is alignment and coherence in the field. Before anything can be transmitted, the system must be tuned. This is exactly what the tuning‑fork metaphor points to. When we are coherent, we naturally resonate with the unified field, our shared consciousness. When we are incoherent, nothing can be received clearly.

Inner Authority and Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs

This distinction between resonance and grounded conduction becomes even clearer when viewed through the structure of human needs. When I look at this through the lens of Maslow’s hierarchy of needs, the picture becomes even clearer. The lower levels of the hierarchy — the physical needs, safety, and a sense of belonging — form the grounding rod of a human life, the grounding that is needed for us to function as lightning conductors. Without grounding, no one can stay centered. We become reactive, pulled into fear or uncertainty, and the energy that moves through us becomes distorted.

But when these foundations are stable, we stand differently. A conductor does not resist the charge, and it does not absorb it. It simply provides a clean path for the energy to move through without causing damage. When we are grounded and connected to our inner authority, the tensions and pressures around us do not accumulate inside us. This is what self‑governance looks like in practice: the ability to stay steady in a storm.

Preserving inner authority is not about control. It is about staying aligned enough to let life flow through without unnecessary friction. When we hold that alignment, we contribute stability to the field around us. We become part of the solution rather than part of the turbulence.

A Practical Example: The Tax Office

This principle becomes most visible in everyday situations — especially the ones that usually trigger frustration. Recently, I had to deal with the tax office. Last year I had to make more purchases than usual for my one‑person company. On Saturday I received a message from the tax office saying that I had a new letter in their digital service. I assumed they wanted to confirm my purchases.

When I opened the letter, it was not about last year’s tax report at all. They wanted me to pay payroll tax. “Since when am I employing people?” I asked myself. I am technically the employer of my assistant, but her salary is paid from a different source. I have never paid payroll tax. But then I thought: “Of course. As a citizen I am the employer of our tax office personnel. This is a kind of office fee.” I paid it at once.

And from that coherent place everything moved smoothly. The moment I reframed the situation, the emotional charge dissolved. It was not about surrendering to bureaucracy; it was about choosing the cleanest path. And the result reflected that clarity. The VAT refund I expected was processed quickly and without complications. The whole situation unfolded smoothly because I stayed in my own coherent center instead of resisting the process.

This is what it means to preserve inner authority in daily life. Even an arbitrary administrative detail can become an opportunity to stay grounded, make a coherent decision, and let things flow.