André

My friend had left me but I had instantly found another friend, André, with whom I could talk about all kinds of things. I suddenly seemed to have an opinion on every issue. I was not only interested in matters that directly affected my own life, but I felt that I was affected by everything….

Awakening

As I woke up from coma I had a feeling that some kind of miracle had happened to me. To my mind there are no miracles as such. I thought that the universe hardly operates against its own natural laws. A miracle was in my mind a sudden incident where things fall into place. When…

Mother in Memoriam

My mother has always had a special place in my heart. When I was a child the connection between us was tangible: She was a part of me. Merely a glance between us was often enough to calm me down. She was a dress maker and I enjoyed watching her working:she took her blue measuring…

Study Plans

Just before the fatal New Years Eve I had finished the curriculum of my school. I had only the final exam before me that was needed to seal the school education.I had accomplished the first tests as I was in rehabilitation centre. In spring 1980 I completed the second part of the exam. Someone thought…

Out of Pure Friendship

One year after the stroke, in the New Year’s Eve 1979, I was feeling like a newborn child. My former life time had passed by and nothing new was built to replace it. I felt that I had an endless amount of blank paper before me, on which I could create my life just as…

The Ignition of the Divine Spark

The Ignition of the Divine Spark

Half a year before I became disabled I travelled in Germany with an organisation promoting international exchange and explored German society and culture. My discoveries provoked a tremendous culture shock in me, which brought my concepts in chaos. I felt that I could not build anything on the values of this world. Everything appeared to…

Who am I?

45 years ago in the New Year’s Eve I had a stroke in brain and after a week in coma I found myself in hospital totally paralysed and unable to speak. After a half year hospital treatment I got a place in rehabilitation centre. Cold winter and the Christmas Star blossoming on the windowsill in…